The Inner Me vs. The Outer Me

I have always been the “fat” friend.  It’s never been pointed out or said aloud…just known.  It has never been a big deal either.  I just have never had the typical friendships with girls that others may have had. 

I never got to share clothes.  Shopping as a matter of fact was usually nonexistent due to the fact that walking into department stores I’d find myself going straight to the jewelry or hair accessories.  (The latest fashion trend stores don’t carry our sizes ladies.)

The boys that I would have crushes on I would fear would choose my thinner friends over me no matter how great my personality was.

It really isn’t a big deal when I think about it.  I know that having a thinner waist line and nicer body doesn’t make you happy.  I know I WOULD be, but my point is, is that I have been evaluating my life over these past few weeks and I am this beautiful person.  But, I am starting to realize that most people don’t see that.  They see my size.

4 Comments so far

  1. jennyfe27 @ July 5th, 2008

    It’s sucks when you realize that most people are only looking at you and not really “seeing” you for who you are. I, too, have always been the “fat friend”. I have had girlfriends in the past (and recent past) that I have come to realize only hung out with me b/c they thought that I made them stand out more and look better. But I have come to realize that the few people that really do see who you truly are, are worth so much more than the others. Even if they are harder to find. =) And all that really matters in life is how you see yourself.

  2. sandy @ July 5th, 2008

    If you truly love yourself, take care of your health…the rest will follow. ;)

  3. chrisie @ July 5th, 2008

    It matters the most on how YOU see yourself!
    I have lost so much of my life because of my weight. It has stolen so much from me…
    but we are changing that now!
    You can do it…let your inner match your outer!

  4. loveitlite @ July 5th, 2008

    Miss Deb, you are beautiful TODAY…inside and OUT! People who value the radiance of curves have a harder time having their voice heard over all the shouting about getting THIN. It’s okay to love who you are today AND bringing as much health into your life as you can. Society makes it seem like those things can’t co-exist…but I think that is part of our mission. Love who we are today enough to make healthy choices for today and for tomorrow. That heals yesterday. (By the way, you can be my skinny friend! hehehe)
    With respect, Rae

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